Some things in my life seem constant.
My girls are the best thing that ever happened to me!
I love people!
I still want to spend the rest of my life with Lasse!
I love seasons even if now, in April, I want to move to constant sunny weather. How can it possibly be allowed to snow in April?
Other things in life can feel constant because they have been happening for a long time, they have become a habit, you have it or you’re doing it just because that’s what has been going on for a while.
Those things can instantly change from constant til maybe not for much longer or be over in a blink of an eye.
That’s how I feel about what I have been spending most of my awaken time on for the past 12 years. My cafe. It’s crazy, but one email and a for sale sign on the building is making me think in terms of closing. I have played around with the thought for a few weeks now and I have even told a few friends and customers. Sometimes when I talk or think about these changes ahead I get very emotional. A customer yesterday gave me a big blank stare like he couldn’t really process what he had just heard me saying.
When the news about the building, where the cafe is, came to my attention I felt beaten down. I thought, crap!! I have worked so hard for the past 12 years with this and then someone else is coming here and telling me that it’s over. If I think back on the past 1.5 years I feel like these situations repeat themselves.
I can say that today I am super proud over how I usually handle things that is thrown at me. It is not hard for me to feel a bit down sometimes but I can feel exhilarated and happy as easy. Something that I perceive as bad news one day can the next day be treated as “good” news becuce I have had time to think about how I can look at it from a positive way.
I am sure I will write more about this in the next few months. I don’t really know what the future holds for me but I am much more exited than worried so it’s all a good thing!!